a mix of emotions.

i feel like my parents left to argentina and my life just turned hectic.

i'm to a point right now where i don't even know how i feel about everything.

i'm stressed to the max.

i have laundry. and house chores. and a test to study for. plus homework for the six chapters this week. plus i'm supposed to be in shape to run in the ragnar.

and i feel like i have no time, or energy, to get it done.

mack has practice. hunter has games. mack has games. i have school. i have work.

i'm waking up at 5 a.m. to be on time for school, or to go running so i'm not late for work.

and i finally get home and instead of accomplishing my tasks i really just want to take a nap.

and it's hard to be a mom.

my friends are doing all sorts of fun things and i can't go because i'm stuck babysitting.

i tell myself it's only for a few more days but it still bums me out.

and it's so hard that my mom doesn't have her phone with her.

every day i have so much i need to tell her and i just can't.

and throughout all of that, this week is seriously just flying by. 

i'm home for five minutes and then i'm off to somewhere else.

and it's so hard to remember everything i need to get done....

so i made a list of all my chores,

but i have ocd and so after i had jotted down my list, i had to make a new list.

and categorize it, and use good penmanship.

[what the heck is my deal?]

and then i'm completely ecstatic.

dallin comes home on wednesday and i seriously just get butterflies thinking about it.

and then i think of how i'll most likely be going to school with him in the fall and i can't even stand how excited i get.

some days i don't even know if i'm stressed, tired, or excited.

i just have so many emotions going on inside of me these last few days.

my stomach is basically just in knots.

but i guess at the moment i'm mostly just feeling scared.

i'd been avoiding the singles ward, i really just didn't want to go.

but last sunday the squidster talked me into going because she had to lead.

i sat down and ole' bishop darrington told me i had a meeting after church.

i made kaylee promise me if it was a bad calling she would run me over with a bus.

[and she pinky swore mind you.]

i got called to be the relief society first counselor.

[trust me readers, i'm shocked too.]

i am so not cut out for this job.

really the only reason i can think of for getting this calling is payback for making fun of my mom when she became president of the relief society.

i'm terrified. 

there are far better qualified girls than me for this calling. way more spiritual girls.

basically just girls who would do a better job.

i'm nervous, and i'm scared.

and i am still reminding kaylee of her promise,

i'll supply the bus.

but i guess come what may and love it.

and although this week has been a crazy roller coaster ride, i'm kind of enjoying it.

life is a crazy adventure or nothing.

and i'm trying to make the best of mine.

so my parents went to argentina

and left me alone to be the mother.

and oh my goodness i am so not cut out for this whole "mommy" thing.

and i'm only trying to do it for ten days.

i seriously do not know how my mom, or any mom for that matter, does it.

i'm trying to go to school from 7-3 and let's just say when i get home i am exhausted. but no, mack has practice, and then a bazillion other things, then hunter has a game...and then there is the laundry, don't even get me started on the laundry. my goodness it NEVER ends!

plus i'm supposed to make meals?! when i was at college i basically just stopped eating because a.) i can't cook and b.) it was so much easier to just go hungry.

but no, these boys eat, and they eat a lot!!

which leaves dirty dishes.

bleh.

then there's just the mishaps of every day life, like hunter accidentally leaving the oven on all night.

[so glad there was no fire.]

and then our dog [that i didn't even know was pregnant] decided to just have babies in the middle of a freezing wind storm so i'm trying to carry new puppies into the garage.

this whole mommy business is a tough life.

i have a new respect for all you mothers.  

p.s. the house is not clean, and i'm too tired to care.

but on the flip side seven more days until dallin gets home! :)

and i honestly could not be any more excited.

i was in class when my phone buzzed, i was expecting maybe a text from espn but nope, it was from dal.

my day was made.

but that's about all i've heard from him or my parents, it costs to much to text/call so we haven't talked.

i'm grateful for good neighbors who are willing to be my mom while mine is away.

they tell me how my scrubs look, and they doctor my weird rash.

[typical that i'm fine until my parents are out of the country.]

and speaking of doctors and scrubs...

i'm now the proud owner of two new pairs.

i honestly have the best job/major...

where else requires you to wear sweats every day?

in other news i may be at uvu next year instead of usu.

you see usu's nursing program is through weber and so i can't get any scholarships through utah state because it's weber's classes..but i can't have a scholarship from weber because i attend usu.

bleh.

and also i want to be closer to dallin.

and it just feels so right.

i love how life is working out right now, and i can't wait until i get to meet dallin at the airport.

life is so so so great right now!

memorial day

i had the most fabulous memorial day!

chrissy came up that weekend to visit and luckily enough for us the weather decided to cooperate on saturday.

you just can't go wrong with a jet ski!

we also drove down to utah to visit skyler's grave.

it was fun to be able to decorate the grave and hear my parents tell stories about him.

i'm sure he was a real gem and i cannot wait to be able to meet him one day!

that night we came home and my mother was on a roll.

she decided to try on my high heels, and i must say, she worked them.

and then she tried taking two steps without holding on the anything, and she went down.

and i wish i could say that i was a champ and didn't laugh, but the truth is that i almost peed my pants i was laughing so hard.

that lady is a saint.

bunny bashing

kk and i have made a summer bucket list.

the list is far too large, and i can't wait to check more things off of it.

one of the things on the list was bunny bashing.

we had to sweet talk brad a jerin just a little, but they finally agreed to come with us.

ok, they finally agreed to take us.

kk and i had been so excited all week to go. the day finally came, and we of course had to go all out..

kk came to my house and we dressed in our official army gear, and then did warrior paint. :)

i wore the name of "obese pocahontas" proud.

kk and i went cruising into brad's driveway like gems. we laid our seats back and put on some rap music. windows down, and we were bumpin'.

brad and jerin didn't even know what to do. but they did hide their embarrassment like champs.

we headed out to the hunting grounds and we were ready to go.

i was in charge of spotlighting, brad drove, and the other two were in the back with the guns.

at first we didn't have much luck finding rabbits, but eventually we did find them.

i honestly don't think i've laughed that hard in all of my life.

between kk shooting all of her bullets in record time [and hitting nothing] to kk screaming and jerin to reload her as he and brad are chasing a bunny, to me trying to spotlight the bunny, and really just blinding kk.

it was honestly one of the funnest nights of my life.

kk and i were awful shots so brad let us shoot one of the bunnies he brought.

cheating, but we were still proud!

so we had a pistol...and i tried shooting a bunny from point blank with it...

aaand i still missed.

i am a lousy shot.

kk finally shot her very own wild bunny, with the help of those two boys of course.

but i mean look at her face, the kid is sure proud! :)

and let it be known that i spotlighted that kill for her!

as for me, i was having no luck..

i got a mouse [that brad stepped on so it wasn't moving]

i shot the tame bunnies brad brought [and still missed them, jerin had to help]

and i had missed like five bunnies.

but alas, i did get one...words cannot describe how happy i was.

summer bucket list, check one!

where has all the time gone?

i swear it was just yesterday that i was moving home from logan, 

and now it's the first week of june.

oh dear.

you would think that with it being summer and me not having class i would be able to keep up on my blog, right?..clearly that just isn't happening.

so i guess i will just go over some of the happenings:

i made it down to logan a few weekends back and was able to be reunited with this gal.

unfortunately now she is in germany so it's going to be a while until we see each other again.

i made it to a few of the declo softball games.

i miss playing so much, but the girls were champs and took fourth at state!

it was so fun getting to watch them play!

of course we had a river run.

no summer would be complete without them.

and it was freezing...but completely worth it!

and then we had mother's day.

talking to dal was definitely the highlight of the day for the whole family.

and we celebrated my mama all day.

the lady is a saint.

hunter tried to take on the old man.

i'm proud to say that he clearly lost, although he did give my dad a run for his money!

the whole thing was highly entertaining!

and i've starting running/biking with this little lady.

she clearly wimped out on me this night and made me bike for two.

i still love her though. :)

kk moved home for the summer.

...aaand i really just couldn't be happier about it!

and i'm coaching a baba team this year.

it's been quite the process trying to be a coach.

i get so frustrated at times, and yet other times i can't do anything but laugh.

it's been so much fun.

i love summer!